YSunday, November 06, 2005
things just cant get any worst..
im not in a festive mood and ppl keep irritating me and i keep hating werk..
i find no point in comin to werk nemore..
everytime i step into the pantry to punch in..its like a drag.
i duno wats happenin to khairul either..mebe we just cant be together..
no matter how we try to be..its just 1 fact we gota accept i gez.
we are too much of an opposite to be together.TSK.
with our diff expectations..im really just not sure at all...
we hardly have any time fer each oda too and he dun seem to even be madly missin me espesh since we have not been seein or talkin to each other fer almost a week.sad case.
i've always been the one msging him to ask him how he's doin no matter how bz or tired i am and there he is finding every possible reason not to msg me..he'll tell me that he's bz or he's tired.
F*** that.i've tried to understand..and he's askin me to understand jus fer tis week cuz its hari raya's 1st week..so he's bz wit family and werk.i duno if im bein unreasonable and i honestly duno if i shud be bothered to care at all..
cuz as far as i noe..if u really are in love wit that person..u wouldnt last a day not listenin to her voice or without knowing how she is..espesh since u noe she's sick.ugh.
i understood that he was tired so i asked him to msg me wen he's goin to werk..[which is an hour ago..] and till now..at 2am..there's still no msg and i noe i shudnt even expect a call.UGHHH!!!
tis is frustrating.and we are not even together yet..and im slowly starting to give up..
espesh wit sch startin nex week..am gona load myself wit sch werk.not gona be bothered by him or dad or any other shytz thats happenin at home.
it really stinks wen nothing's goin ur way..
STOP FUCKIN PICKIN AT ME!!!!!
FucK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i could run away and live alone and just be in solitude..i would.tsk.
_callous_ was here with you at
